Jasonbilt

2003-04-06T19:37:00.000-07:00

2003-03-19T08:27:00.000-08:00

I had to include a link to my favorite poet. I have a link on my wiki to his site and was reading the poem:"she said".
Check it out if you like. It is the fourth one down.
(if you are feeling depressed it is not because of the springtime weather)
-I have to go check the two temperatures on the wine fridge in my rental unit.

2003-03-09T13:08:00.000-08:00

StudioTour 1 finished.

2003-02-24T09:46:00.000-08:00

I have been busy with my wiki.
The poems are drafts that I have invited people to comment on, but I haven't had any responses yet.
Jump to conclusions.
Writing poetry is a new experience for me.
Is there any subject that can't be approached in poetry?
I don't think so.
I tend to blend my obsessions, fears, memories into poems that become starting points, not finished drafts, of ideas that I want to meditate on.
The fears that I have about sharing my poetry have subsided some, due to the fact that rejection is a part of poetry and life. They have that in common. Although I have been rejected a great deal, I won't quit trying. Poets have a unique community.
Here's a few thoughts that I would like to share-
Random thoughts that are interconnected by what?
Some things we connect with and others we don't. The degree to which we feel the
connection can be a decision, present attitude or interests, etc. In many ways, it is
a choice. The amount of things I can connect to may depend upon how scatterbrained I am
feeling on any given day. I may read a poem one day that I can really relate to, and other
days it may mean little or nothing.
It seems to me that poetry is a way in, a vehicle to understanding or trying to understand.
Since I am not making any sense, I will stop and try again tomorrow.

"Foreign Country"
The anger
fights
frustrations
swimming around in my head-
dizzying the day away.

a day
with unlimited choices
the attitude taken
deciding
how it will pass.

hopeful-
a foreign country feeling.

wine breath walk
cologne candy

listening
really listening
to
the little things-
birthdays, illness,
divorce.
My feelings of guilt
for being involved in
it all.

2003-02-24T09:38:00.000-08:00

I have been busy getting everything on my

2003-02-12T08:13:00.000-08:00

I don't want to try and define poetry, but I feel that emotion is a neccesary element in it.

2003-02-03T11:22:00.000-08:00

Since spring is coming and I am getting anxious to start skateboarding, I looked at a few sites to order a new
deck.
I was looking at a skate mag over the weekend and saw a photo of Duane Peters that scared me a lot. The photo was like looking at a car accident. I didn't want to look, but I just had to take a peek. Here
is more on Duane Peters.

2003-02-03T09:45:00.000-08:00

He wore a wrinkled white T-shirt that was indeterminable from his neck. The wayside rest was the one
that led the state in abductions of innocents. It was 3 a.m. and the coffee wasn't working anymore- I am
not a smoker, but he was, sitting in his swivel air ride seat, not committing to the road or the sleeper, but
perched in between. The high back seat was red velvet, a Volvo with an intergral sleeper that allowed the
driver full movement between the cab and the sleeper. There was no difference. No walkway or portal into
the sleeper. It was a company truck out of Mobile, Alabama. A hot sticky city. I remember thinking-he is a
long way from home, and is trying to wake up. He had a long ciggarette that was sticking out of his mouth. I
want to assume that the filter and his stained t-shirt had a great deal in common. His skin was very wrinkled, like
a old, dried out alcoholics.
The reason I remember him is because that was his morning perch, the outside view changed but his high back
seat was other people's kitchen table. The place that we sit to let the morning confusion shift into the daytime confusion.

2003-01-30T13:01:00.000-08:00

I had a great day today because I was so well rested. Lack of sleep can make a person
feel crazy, especially during this time of the year when the sun never seems to come out-
the days above zero are cloudy, the clear days so cold.
I went skiing yesterday, finished the loop and met up with a friend in the parking lot. Not wanting
to miss out on more skiing, I decided to join him in another loop at Hobson. My friend introduced
me to a new tradition-eating oranges after skiing for blood sugar replacement.
Today, I learned about the ama.

2003-01-27T09:17:00.000-08:00

I found an interesting sermon that is as close to spiritual as I allow myself to get. It's written by a
Unitarian Universalist Minister from Boston. Taoism/Surfing
?

2003-01-27T09:10:00.000-08:00

Tom Robbins has a new book coming out.

2003-01-27T09:05:00.000-08:00

Talked to anonymous friend last night and asked how she has been-(haven't seen her in six
months). She called me from the bar, I asked if she was on a bender.
"Honey, I been on a bender for the past six months".If she doesn't answer my calls today, I'll try here.
It's also nice for finding the bucktooth, sausage smelling , gasoline drinking kids that you relentlessly teased
and locked in lockers in kindergarten.

2003-01-23T09:27:00.000-08:00

Finally found a decent sight that sells motorcycle kits.
Low cost kits

2003-01-23T08:34:00.000-08:00

I went snowboarding over break and although there isn't much for snow in Montana, it was a great trip. It made me want to move closer to the mountains.
If I wasn't so landlocked, I could surf on the West Coast. Missoula to Seattle=482 miles.
Seattle to Westport=122 miles.
I've visited Oregon, and I like they way that the state supports skateboarders with free, concrete
skateparks.

2003-01-23T07:57:00.000-08:00

Voice of a Child
I feel that as a parent I could connect with this site and the ups and downs of raising a child. Perfecting parenting is something that is impossible for me, but I feel that the process of learning together and feeding off my own upbringing helps me with the day to day struggles. I like the intimacy this site displays.

2003-01-23T07:49:00.000-08:00

It's an offensive world. People who can't handle being offended must withdraw.

2003-01-23T07:38:00.000-08:00

Checked out Rowanstaff and enjoyed the diversity of topics and opinions, but I wanted to comment on the cartoons comments. I love to watch cartoons, and since I share custody of my daughter, I have an excuse to watch them with her. I am not famaliar with the world of gaming, but I think that by visiting Rowanstaff's blog I may (?) become familiar with some of the terms.

2003-01-23T07:25:00.000-08:00

Checked out ///Donsetc/// and could really connect with his computer
problems. I like his idea of putting some substance into a blog, but I lack substance, except when I consume too many substances.
I can appreciate the challenges Donsetc is facing by returning to school. I commend you for having the courage to follow your dreams.

2003-01-23T06:51:00.000-08:00

White Trash 101
Day 1
Mobile home culture/roots

2003-01-23T06:08:00.000-08:00

This morning I spent
some
time
reading
one
of
Bukowski's book of poems. I had forgotten how much
I appreciate the man's writing. He accepts so many things that would ruin other people. His take on relationships is
twisted; he makes so much sense.

2003-01-22T09:47:00.000-08:00

My friend Jon stopped by and I hadn't seen him in quite awhile.
He was trying to build my self-esteem and pointed me to this link for motivation.

2003-01-22T09:29:00.000-08:00

WHITE TRASH 101
How to rot out your teeth by twenty five with a steady diet of mountain dew and meth.
Free insomnia and domestic disputes included with tuition rates.
Also free beating by man with mullet.
Text: Multimedia including: daytime television, survivor marathons and free truckdriver
magazines, available at truckstops in the southeast.
Computer competency

2003-01-22T08:04:00.000-08:00

strong coffee
-today started quite a bit better than usual-despite the -15 temperature
My parents keep calling from Tucson, and I am trying to be nice and interested in the
beautiful weather they are having.

My cousin called from Dallas last night and I starting wondering why the hell I live in this cold
isolated tundra. Maybe it is the friendliness of people up here, but probably not.

2003-01-21T10:10:00.000-08:00

HECTIC-today started with strong coffee, grocery shopping (two things on the list-left with over twenty).
-found a cool site that sells custom motorcycle kits.
-I am antsy-can't wait for springtime so I can skate again, and hopefully find a motorcycle- (builder)